Monday, February 22, 2010
sometimes i love you so much i hate you......
i could never hate you
but i could hate how much i love you.
i ask god everyday
when will i meet that guy that will sweep me off me feet
and make me forget your existance.
but the question is how can someone compeat with perfection.
eveyone has there flaws but your flaws are beutiful.
mind body and soul i would not change anything about you.
but in this situation im hopeless .
hoplessly in love with the wrong person.
the man who unwillingly holds my heart
the man who will never see the house
the kids the white picket fence in the future
well at least not our future
and im force to except this reality.
so i take what i can get.
the 20 or 30 min of that high i get off of u which makes me feel
like I'm dancing on cloud 9 and I'm two steps away from heaven
but right before i touch those golden gates
I'm awake again .
right back to reality and I'm alone .
i may have seem to move on
but i never recovered all the pieces of my heart.
and as much as i date
at the end of day it all comes back to you.
all of it is me trying to get over you
and at the end of the day none of them amount to you but.........
who can compete with perfection???
I dread the day you get a girlfriend.
because i don't even know if id be able to fake a smile.
to me no women will be good enough for you
but the only thing that will go through my head is me wishing
maybe if had half i what she had to offer
you would look at me that way.
and i hope when that day comes I'm a least 100 miles away because
its gonna hurt to much.
i wish i could tell you how i felt but i been down that road.
I'm the one who's stuck with the pain not you .
i try so hard to forget . and i never want to feel that way again.
so i keep it to myself .
but how i give up on someone so perfect .
someone who could motivate me to be the women i need to be .
somone i can confide in
someone who is my